Labor Begins

Everyone seemed to feel last nights school meeting was very productive. It was the 4 founding families, although all were invited. We agreed to put up our booth at the farmer's market on Saturday, agreed that of the two possible free locations for the school we preferred the old school house on Trace Ridge Road because it would require less construction (and there's only 8 weeks until school starts).

The bulk of the meeting was a discussion of the finances. I shared a simple equation to help us begin to finalize the projected income and expenses so that we can finalize the strategic plan in order to file for non-profit status. The equation is this:

Tuition = total expenses / # of student days per week

We began with the assumption that tuition was $10 per day and then determined which expenses were optional and which were absolutely necessary. Those deemed necessary included utilities, insurance, salary, facilities maintenance, and supplies. We assigned relatively solid estimates to each and discovered that there was a shortfall of about $80 per week.

We then identified several ways to fill in that gap:

• Seek more students (we need 8 more student days, so either 8 students who select one day a week or some combination of students who select 2-3 days per week)
• Rather than have a paid teacher for all 3 days a week, shift the strategy so that the paid employee does all coordination in 1 or 2 days and rely more upon the other parents to share the teaching.
• Plan more fund raising activities
• Plan to compensate the teacher with both dollars and goods or services.

The last option involves a great deal of administrative burden. The acceptable goods and services must be identified up front with a dollar value assigned to each. They would also be considered part of the taxable income and so there would still be some dollars associated for state and federal taxes.

There are still a number of questions to be answered, but I was personally proud and surprised that we are facing the uncertainties and working through the complexity together. I was also fairly surprised that no one suggested we forget about applying for non-profit status. That is certainly something to celebrate because in my mind that was the most often re-visited decision over the past 2 years. We really have come a long way!

Eight weeks of hard labor to go!

The Quickening

Apparently this baby wants to be born! Today our teacher got a call from a woman who has agreed to donate to us a location for our school! I for one had been discouraged by how much time had lapsed since the initial contact, but it turns out that once again I'm uselessly impatient!

The news appears to have given everyone a burst of energy and drive. A fund raising opportunity for this Saturday which had been cancelled is now on again!

I also had the opportunity to do some processing with a couple of the members of our group. It was good to know that people were willing to express having felt slighted and even angry in response to what I shared at our last meeting. It is so absolutely necessary to group cohesion that we learn how to work through conflict. And even though we talked about it conceptually at various points throughout our planning process, up until now we haven't gone there together.

I'm so pleased with our progress. We really have come a long way. I met these people at a local Summer Solstice celebration in 2006. At the same Summer Solstice party in 2007 we had the idea to form a school. Now, at this years Summer Solstice, only 2 years later, we'll be celebrating the fact that we have a location and three more families have joined our coop.

This is the Quickening. This is the time when the baby turns in the womb and is in position to be born. The labor is about to begin!

Struggling to Be Born

Recent changes in the school development project have been tough and really felt like a struggle. When I'm connected to my deepest sense of Purpose I'm certain that my decision is not only the best one for my family but also serves the school.

However, it cannot be denied that my decision is disruptive and jarring to our fragile womb. Is that a positive and neccessary part of gestation, or useless pain? I suppose only time will tell if I've been effective in midwifing the birth of this school. Reminds me of one of my past posts entitled "Life Lessons from my Chickens". A group of people working together to create an entirely new organization is a struggle. It is complicated enough for two people to form a partnership such as marriage, but for four families to become cohesive enough to create agreements based on commitments of time and money is incredibly complex.

And while I have a number of skills and tools to throw into the mix, there's still so much more that is needed for this collaborative venture to produce anything. We have passion and determination, but whether or not this outweighs our fear and uncertainty remains to be seen. I've attempted to create a space where people feel safe expressing concerns and discussing their growth edges. I've attempted to guide people to their growth edges and invited them to ponder the chasm between us and our dream. I've tried to model this by being transparent in sharing my own hopes and fears. I'm even putting myself into this blog, knowing full well that anyone can read this at any time.

Yesterday I gave out a six page list of the action items to be achieved in the next 10 weeks. At each step in the journey there seem to be two choices, either we step up or we step down. I sooooo want to see us step up. But I can't help but think that people might percieve that I have stepped down. I find myself questioning whether I did the right thing. But I don't want to be right, I want to be part of a cooperative elementary school. I want children in one of the poorest rural counties in the entire country to have a stellar education, regardless of the income of their parents. I want to look back at this blog post and smile in a knowing way... and realize that just like giving birth to a new baby, it was the most long, painful, and arduous blessing of our entire lives.

For the Good of the Order

Last night we had another school meeting and I got the opportunity to share the news which I described in my last post. In short: I shared that putting my own kid in public school for kindegarten this August would allow me to better serve the development of the school.

We were out there at the park with our 8 kids running amok until 10 pm because we had two new families at the meeting and I wanted to wait until after they left to share the news. I didn't think it would be fair to "stir the pot" with brand new families in the mix.

The news was jarring and it took time to process. I feel exhausted this morning. I keep replaying the night and wondering if I really did the best I can do. I felt like I was talking loud and emphatically, and that speech pattern makes me wonder if I was being fanatical and arrogant. And as the group rehashed some of the last meeting's conversation it occurred to me that I'd had a very different experience of the conversation than the others had. Of course, that is always the case... but it highlighted to me that having my own son on the enrollment list amplified my drive and pushiness for some of the specific details of the strategic plan. Having my own son's needs in the equation limited my ability to really hear the needs of the emerging order.

I believe that people can realize their dreams if they are willing to face their fears and work hard. I've proven this to myself numerous times. My husband and I are persistent, we know that success requires a willingness to fail frequently until you get it right. None of us have ever formed a school. For me there is great beauty and great learning in the trying, in the trials.

I like to think that I have organizational skills for a reason and that my Purpose has to do with helping people realize their dreams by organizing group efforts. Forest is a bright kid and he's going to learn no matter where he spends his days. Now that he's "taken care of" for this school year I can be clear about acting for the good of the order rather than acting out of self interest. I feel emboldened to lead the process. I feel like the gap between the present and August 24th will close quickly and there's much work to do. I'm already forming action items and lists in my mind, and now I'm comfortable playing manager and bringing more accountability to the picture. This is what the emerging school requires and I have the skills to play the part. For the good of the order.

Feedback and Resistance

I'm playing in several systems right now. In some cases the systems are 100 years old and I'm analyzing and intervening in service to a larger cause, such as various US Forest Service units at the national, regional, and Forest levels. In other cases I'm co-creating entirely new systems such as a cooperative elementary school and a new Forest Service Enterprise Unit called Organizational Development Experts (ODE).

In doing so the concepts of feedback and resistance come up frequently. First let me clarify that I'm using the term feedback from the Systems Dynamics perspective: feedback is an iterative process which generates the form of the system.

I left our last school meeting feeling angry and frustrated. I wanted to just let go of the entire effort. It seemed to me that the other people in the group were unable or unwilling to accept my donation of money for start-up costs such as filing the 501-3c (non-profit) paperwork. In my anger I realized it was futile to create a school based on fund raising and donations if the people who comprise the school are not able to accept or even ask for gifts of money. I took it as feedback that the group was just not ready to realize its dream.

Due to time and circumstances, I didn't get the chance to communicate any of this to anyone else in the group. And that's surely a blessing because as it percolated into my flesh I gained several more understandings. First, as the anger wore off I felt devastated and sad. I work hard to make positive changes in the world. In exchange for working hard I receive a salary which more than covers our basic needs. The earnings, then, afford me the opportunity to create even more good in the world by engaging in various activities such as switching to renewable resources and supporting the local economy and community. I felt like it was all a waste and that the effort was worthless if I couldn't share my abundance in our efforts to provide children and families with an excellent educational opportunity. For several days I grieved over this.

The grief turned to bargaining and I began to grope for ways of realizing this dream. As the facilitator of the strategic planning process, I feel like its my role to help the group take the steps needed to implement the vision and mission which we created over potlucks and amidst the din of laughing children. I thought of things I could say or do in order to nudge or even push people beyond their growth edges.

Finally, I've found acceptance, and here is what that looks like today. I've accepted that the group is not ready to realize the dream we created over the past two years. More importantly I've realized that they've been trying to tell me this for the past six months and I couldn't hear it because I was in denial. The truth is that the rest of the group is quite comfortable reaching for a smaller version of the dream, taking baby steps toward the larger dream. The truth is that we never really did lock in on one solid vision. My family came to the group with different needs and experiences than the other three families. Our central value for our kids education is that they need socialization, and so we were originally leaning toward public school. The other three families had always leaned toward home schooling for reasons of their own.

My husband and I have decided that this fall our son will start kindegarten at public school. Now that we've taken our kids out of the equation I can re-align myself with the needs of this group. I'm still dedicated to helping them realize their dream. I'm still dedicated to helping each and every person who is part of the cooperative achieve their best and highest purpose. And now more than ever I'm available to be present to the fact that being a servant to these people and their dreams means allowing it to emerge and unfold at its own pace.

It turns out that this time I was the resistance, and so I surrender in service to the greatest good.

Shifting Fields of Attention

The planning for Leslie Creative Learning Cooperative has gone well. The visioning period went well. Last meeting we unhinged the structure and let things float for a period. We re-opened a number of variables that had been set in the first draft of the strategic plan. The meeting wrapped up and we had not come to any closure. I asked everyone to stay in the uncertainty until the next meeting, in order to see how the various options felt.

Last night we met again. I facilitated a process which I'm thinking of as a "Deep dive to I Am." We passed a talking stick and began with "When we left the meeting I felt... and since then I've been feeling...." I facilitated discerning thoughts from emotions. I held the intention and facilitated A) People going deeper in the U (Theory U) by personally admitting their fears, and B) Viewing themselves at responsible and accountable for starting a school, 3)Realizing that there were no external forces which were preventing us. By connecting to the universal emotion of fear people had a shared experience and were able to shift from field 1 and 2 to field 3: "Seeing myself as part of the whole."

Once people began sharing feelings of fear and disappointment they began experiencing care and compassion for each other. This raised the coherence of the field in such a tangilble way that it created safety. I then lead people to connect with their most creative and innovative self and pass the stick a round with this topic... "I know I can do this. I am ___. I am going to ___." Each individual made a number of commitements and assignments using "I am" at the beginningof each statement. Then I called out questions and prompted them to all reply "I am" again and again like drumbeats.

The purpose here was to allow it to really sink in that we were the only things stopping us and that we decide whether we succeed. It also made a cadence which shifted the field from care and compassion due to vulnerability, but rather hype and momentum for success. Next we passed the talking stick for a round on the topic "Right now I feel..." and saw the noticeable shift in emotions. By going into fear together we generated the fuel for our own reserection. People were excited, and appeared to have a new sense of ownership, clarity, and purpose.

I closed the circle and released the deeper space we'd been holding. We chatted about fundraising and enjoyed a lovely meal.

While I know that the field 3 awareness was fleeting, I also know that the more we operate from that space the easier it becomes to achieve levels 3 and 4.

Life Lessons from my Chickens

We're hatching chicks in an incubator upstairs. The first few emerged on Saturday, several came on Easter sunday, and a few more are considering today as their birthday. My little kids are quite smitten by the chicks and fascinated by the process.

I am learning a great deal about transformation and life by watching the process. One thing I notice is that I really had a sense of pride for and affinity with the first brave chick. She didn't have the most effective exit strategy... she pecked for a very long time and finally broke through. I'm not sure what part of my programming has conditioned me to think that being first is best. I'm considering how much this notion serves me and perhaps I'll let it go.

The second chick had a much more efficient liberation. She pecked in a sort of straight line until she'd completed a circle and then gracefully pushed the whole top of the egg right off. She didn't have to fight nearly as much as the first. Why do I appreciate the struggle of the first more than the efficiency and grace of the second?

We have two kinds of hens, brown ones and black ones. For some reason the first 5 chicks born were brown and the next 4 chicks born were black. The black ones all died their first night. We think that they got too hot under the lamp and too dehydrated. Maybe the 5 brown chicks - being several hours older and therefore stronger - bullied the black chicks and kept them from the water? We don't know.

All the eggs began their 21 day incubation at the same time. Today there are two eggs with beaks sticking out of them, and I can see the chicks are breathing, but they appear to have no motivation to break out. This is the most interesting lesson of all to me... I put the eggs in and did what I was obligated to do. I can't do anything else. I can't break the shells open and let the chicks out because they would be weak. They MUST struggle by themselves in order to build up the muscle strength and determination needed to survive.

It doesn't matter if I'm fearful, helpful, prayerful, or facilitative... each of those chicks has to make its own choice to fight out of it's shell or to simply die.

Like the school we're working to start. I've done what I can to guide the visioning and the strategic planning process. At our last meeting we agreed to re-open a number of the variables which had been pinned down in the first iteration of the strategic plan draft. Some of the possibilities included realizing something less than what we had dreamt. We even came face to face with the possibility of giving up altogether. I encouraged everyone to sit in the place of uncertainty which we created by re-opening the variables. I asked them to see what the various options feel like.

I hope that what emerges from this time of incubation is a fight to live, a fight to emerge from our shell and grow feathers so that one day Leslie Creative Learning Cooperative might fly. Creation is a tender and fragile process, yet it is infinite and constant. Even if all my chicks don't hatch there will always be more chickens. The seeds I plan and tend to may never bloom, but there will always be flowers. For this, I am grateful.

Eureka! I did it!

Tonight I filed the name Leslie Creative Learning Cooperative, Inc. with the Arkansas Secretary of State. It was quite easy. Then I decided to check out their form for the "Articles of Incorporation." Low and behold it was a really simple form (how often does that happen in government?)! So, I filed that too. Then I completed the IRS form SS-4 to request our employer identification number. That one pager was also pretty easy since I filled one out about 4 years ago when we hired a nanny for our baby boy. (Funny, both times it has been about my kids!)

I could have faxed in the SS-4 right away, but I need my husband to sign it and he's already gone to bed.

Tomorrow we have our first public information meeting. I'm eager to find out how many people will attend. We posted an add in the Marshall Mountain Wave (our local paper). We also posted flyers around the county.

The idea for this school was born on 6/21/07 at a local Summer Solstice celebration. The four founding families have been meeting monthly ever since. I've played the role as facilitator, including leading the meetings. Laura Daly, the teacher/administrator, and I drafted the strategic plan and the bylaws. Both are still in draft form. We recently elected my husband, Steven Newby, to be the director and Jason Morriss to be treasurer. We have not yet filled the position of secretary, so I am acting in this role. I cannot assume the role permanently because I feel it is a conflict of interest to have two officers in one family. As soon as we expand to include new families we will have a more diverse pool of candidates for the final role.

I'm grateful and excited about how far we have come. The fact that these first 3 forms are completed is a HUGE deal to me. I also got pretty far into the f1023 which is the form to request designation from the IRS as a non-profit organization. The book I've been using as a guide said that the 1023 would take a minimum of 10 hours. At present I think that might be much less. Perhaps it's because we've already gotten so far in the strategic plan and bylaws. Some of the attachments to the form will be copied straight from passages in these two texts.

The book I'm using is great. It's called How to Form a Nonprofit Corporation.

Home Grown School

My husband, Steven, and I live in the Ozark Mountains of Arkansas with our two young children, Forest and Raven. We moved here about 4 years ago. I work for the national headquarters of the Forest Service, in a program called Enterprise. Because I serve the entire agency, I can live anywhere and work from an office in my home.

At the local summer solstice party in 2007 there were a group of us mom's sitting on a quilt and talking about our kids. Between the 4 moms we had a total of 7 kids, 4 of them all the same age. The conversation got around to schooling and what our plans were. One mom, Laura Daly, shared that she'd always dreamed of starting a school and that she'd even studied early childhood development in college. Then I shared that Steven and I had a dream of starting a non-profit organization and that one of our ideas was to have a school/community center which would provide education for both kids as well as adults.

It could have been one of those "wouldn't it be nice if..." conversations, but because I'm an organizational developer I siezed the moment and gave a quick sales pitch about how we REALLY could do this. I offered to facilitate meetings and guide the group through the various processes.

It's now 1.5 years later. Our strategic plan is about 80% complete. On Friday we elected the director of our board and agreed to begin filing papers for our 501-3c. The local American Legion has agreed to let us hold the school there when we open up this August. The four families who've been in on the planning process have really worked hard to get this far. I'll have to see if I can post our brochure and/or strategic plan. In the mean time, here's some excerpts from the executive summary of the strategic plan:

Vision:
By Fall of 2009, Leslie Creative Learning Cooperative, a 501-3c non-profit organization, will open its doors to 12-15 students. Our facility will be eco-friendly with multiple learning environments which encourage holistic development and self-initiated learning.

Mission:
LCLC is a non-profit elementary school which provides affordable holistic education to children in Northern Arkansas. Our mission is to enhance the child’s natural ability to realize his/her highest potential. Our developmentally appropriate environment supports alternate learning styles. At LCLC we partner with parents and students to craft an individual learning plan about which each student can be passionate. Our goal is to create a partnership between children, parents, teachers, the school, and the community.

Educational Philosophy:
At LCLC we believe children learn best in an environment in which they are actively involved in their education. Children learn when they are excited about the subject and inspired rather than required to learn. We feel children learn best when the curriculum is both developmentally appropriate and centered on their individual learning style. Learning is enhanced when children are in a multi-aged classroom in which they are able to learn from and teach each other.

At LCLC we recognize that the parents are their children’s first educators. Diversity and individuality are respected, encouraged and supported in our democratic approach to both curriculum and decision making. We feel the process of learning is just as important as the subjects being taught. LCLC strives to place learning in both a local and global context.
Teachers partner with parents and students to design an individual learning plan which is tailored to the student’s interests and developmental needs. Parents elect part time or full time attendance so that a portion of the child’s learning happens in the home. We strive to create a learning community which not only supports the learning of each individual student, but also provides students with opportunities to collaborate.

Whenever possible the individual learning plans of the several students blend with communal projects. Communal projects are designed to provide experiential and integrated learning. LCLC communal projects are not only relevant to the developmental needs of the students, but also to the development of the community at large. Examples might include a coop school garden and farmers market.

I will periodically blog about the work to date and the next steps. If you, reader, should happen to find this blog post because you are dreaming of creating a school, please feel free to contact me and I will share our materials and experiences with you. Afterall, one of the best ways to change the world for the good is to start by giving the next generation of leaders the best education possible.